Beneath The Sheets

This is Jon, he is the one person I never get tired of photographing. I have rolls and rolls of really old film with him on it, and I will probably end up with a lot more by the end of my lifetime. He understands the me behind the camera more than he understands the camera being pointed at him if that makes any sense at all, he is is just one of those people that completely understands me and knows exactly what I want and he always seems to be looking at me through the camera though all that glass and metal the eyes find me.

Mostly shooting portraits though is annoying sometimes I constantly find yourself at strange hours of the night wanting to take photographs, with obviously no person to shoot. This summer has seen an incredible lack of people for me to photograph, but I’m really trying to get out of that loop and get back on form again. I wouldn’t call it a creative block but it is something like that, my creative juices are still very much flowing I’m just lacking in the materials, in this case the models to put them onto film.
I shot self portraits the other week, which is something I do rarely it is something that interests me greatly but I don’t find myself terribly photogenic and usually can’t bare to look at the negatives. However I was so sick of not shooting anything in so long last week that I just did it, the film has been sitting in the fridge (it’s outdated) since then. I intend to process it when I get some money, but really what I want to be doing is shooting more people I feel like putting out some kind of distress signal for models.

I’ve been spending a lot of time on eBay this week mostly looking at cute Japanese things, I just can’t help myself. I am now watching a multitude of things all of which I don’t need and do not have the money to but this is despite the fact that I already have a box full of Japanese letter sets and memo pads that I barely use through both the lack of people to write too and because of me not wanting to ruin them with my horrid scrawling penmanship.
Also, I don’t know if this is linked at all but I have been having a terrible craving for japanese food, ones that I didn’t even eat while I was in Tokyo. I’m going to try and get Jon to get me some cucumber maki tomorrow but he will probably be too busy but i’m craving some to a ridiculous level right now.
I actually would like to make my own one time, I used to have a bento box that I’d sometimes put fruit and things in - me being a fussy eater and a vegetarian on top of that their isn’t much I can actually put in a bento box and then look forward to eating, but I wouldn’t mind having a go at making my own maki and doing a little bento lunchbox now and again for myself maybe when I start college I might give that a go.